Nursing came out today. Rowan’s color has changed quite a bit. The changes indicated that Rowan is rapidly approaching the point where he will not wake up again. Once we hit that point, it could be a day or two before he draws his last breath.
We decided to go ahead and stop his IV fluids because he is retaining fluid in his lungs. This means he is attached to nothing, but still has a port so we can give him meds.
Yesterday I walked him around the house and showed him all of the things we have to remind us of him. I showed him the wolves. I showed him his candle that we will light on his birthday and anytime we miss him so badly we want to remember the light he brought to us. I showed him our “strength” sign, with a howling wolf in the background and his shield with his name (thank you Aly). I showed him where I want to hang his handprint and promised him that his quote and wolf pictures will stay in his room along with our diplomas and awards, as he is one of our biggest achievements. I told him that we were going to make a book for Evelyn with all of their stories in it so she would remember him too.
I told him how much I love him. How happy I am he picked us, and everything else that I have said to him every day of his life. This morning I took him into the living room and we curled up and slept on the couch. He laid in bed with his daddy for a while too.
We can feel that his light is dimming. We are so thankful that we have had so much time to say goodbye.
There is a better place than here. A place so beautiful it is beyond our imagination. This is where Rowan is going and this is where he will be; safe, happy & healthy, until he is back in your arms again. Until that time, every glorious, wonderful thing you see and experience in this world will be Rowan.
ReplyDeleteMay you all feel the comfort of those that love you and support you both near and far during this time.
Marty
You are such a sweet and wonderful mother. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and all your family.
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